Perhapses

I've been wanting to blog for a while on change and how beautiful it can be, but I've been so busy with all the   changes lately that I haven't had time! And while most have been beautiful, it's always a little weird  to live in a new building, take all new classes, and make almost all new friends...okay, so maybe I'm still on the fence with change.  When you linger in a state of limbo, you think any change is welcome, but I like things I can control, and the world seldom stops turning to ask my permission. It's rather a bother! Humbug.
Then I see something like...

 This! A rusted grape leaf I found...or...

THIS! An amazing bouquet of roses that just became more so as they died, forsaking their bright and showy glamour for this paler,miraculous state of frail beauty.

And then I think to myself...well, I'm getting older everyday, and not getting anywhere fast... but perhaps negative changes I see impacting my small world are not making me any worse, just different. And more interesting. There's a reason why I took a picture of the infected grape leaf, and not the pristine one.  The rusted one shows its scars proudly:  "I think I look cool".  Yes grape leaf, you do.

So here's my goal: not embracing change--not just yet--but not letting it knock me down.  Looking at it from a perspective of perhapses: perhaps this will make me a better person, perhaps I will learn a good lesson, perhaps I will just know to handle situations differently in the future, perhaps this is a wonderful new opportunity...perhaps it doesn't matter all that much.

What will I become? I don't know.  But perhaps I will be something to smile at.